My bi-weekly antidote for the Sunday Scaries is brewed & posted before my morning coffee? I love the consistency & dedication you both put into this community <3
Used Submission/Surrender and Soft in Therapy This Week, Connecting Trauma and Biblical Womanhood
Texas born and bred weirdo with kids. I’m the product of a Shein biblical marriage. SAHM who was actually a brilliant autistic woman that was never going to succeed at her biblical vocation. She was and is an emotionally abusive parent. But she’s chilled out without all the stimulus of kids and a husband. Dad was an abused ADHD kid from small farm town Texas. Never saw anything modeled properly. He was emotionally and physically abusive and softened a lot after divorce and finding himself a “real” biblical woman. That’s a different post.
Anyways, my daughter was in the hospital in February for a month with pneumonia. Was intubated for over a week. My dad died 3 days after she came home. I’m executor. It’s all too much.
Finally got a therapist like the adult I am. Combination of traditional talk and EMDR. Just had a session because my granddad died last week and had a memory come up where I was at his wedding to my granny (he’s a step granddad) and wearing soft florals and butterfly clips and feeling light and soft. It’s my last memory before I feel like I lost my whimsy.
Queue me telling my therapist I desperately crave that before time where I was soft and want to surrender/submit. But to MYSELF. Not another person.
So that’s why I’m sharing. My story is likely similar to a lot of our peers. I listened to what Charlie said and liked it - because like Caro - I have an egalitarian anti-racist marriage. I barely have the eye to see it. My two sisters are vulnerable to this narrative.
Fascinating thoughts for my drive to clean out my dads house today. I stopped just so I could type this up. Thanks for the emotional processing inspiration.
My bi-weekly antidote for the Sunday Scaries is brewed & posted before my morning coffee? I love the consistency & dedication you both put into this community <3
This episode is incredible unhinged. Katie I am screaming I hope you heal from your dream lmao
Used Submission/Surrender and Soft in Therapy This Week, Connecting Trauma and Biblical Womanhood
Texas born and bred weirdo with kids. I’m the product of a Shein biblical marriage. SAHM who was actually a brilliant autistic woman that was never going to succeed at her biblical vocation. She was and is an emotionally abusive parent. But she’s chilled out without all the stimulus of kids and a husband. Dad was an abused ADHD kid from small farm town Texas. Never saw anything modeled properly. He was emotionally and physically abusive and softened a lot after divorce and finding himself a “real” biblical woman. That’s a different post.
Anyways, my daughter was in the hospital in February for a month with pneumonia. Was intubated for over a week. My dad died 3 days after she came home. I’m executor. It’s all too much.
Finally got a therapist like the adult I am. Combination of traditional talk and EMDR. Just had a session because my granddad died last week and had a memory come up where I was at his wedding to my granny (he’s a step granddad) and wearing soft florals and butterfly clips and feeling light and soft. It’s my last memory before I feel like I lost my whimsy.
Queue me telling my therapist I desperately crave that before time where I was soft and want to surrender/submit. But to MYSELF. Not another person.
So that’s why I’m sharing. My story is likely similar to a lot of our peers. I listened to what Charlie said and liked it - because like Caro - I have an egalitarian anti-racist marriage. I barely have the eye to see it. My two sisters are vulnerable to this narrative.
Fascinating thoughts for my drive to clean out my dads house today. I stopped just so I could type this up. Thanks for the emotional processing inspiration.
Let the record reflect that Allie Beth Stuckey ALSO wrote a book called "You're Not Enough (& That's Okay)" 🤮 I'm so glad she's raising kids.